Spring Jenkins

Yikes, it’s been a month. Clearly, my goal to write more isn’t going as well as I would like.

First: I got a job! Thank ALL THE GODS, the old and the new, because not working makes me feel useless. Granted, it’s part-time, but it’s part-time by my own choice. I still try to be around for Mom most of the time and work when my ex-husband is here to kind of keep an eye on things. But I love it. It’s a caregiver job. It’s weird to get paid to basically do what I do by nature. I’ve met the most awesome people through it! My mom has even commented that I come home lit up. 😁

Second: I skimmed over the last post. There have been a couple of “let’s just be friends” talks since then. I don’t mind going on dates here and there, but I have absolutely zero desire to be actually seeing anyone. I decided that I feel that way for a reason and to honor that. Both men I’ve talked to have been very gracious about it. They are both great guys and I wish them well.

If I’m ever to be in a relationship again, I want it to unfold slowly and naturally. And I hope it doesn’t happen for a few years, if at all. 😂 Why?

Because I’m trying to focus on hobbies. Because so much of my life has been dedicated to whatever man I’m with that I’ve completely lost touch with things that I like to do and am interested in.

For example, I used to be huge into Dune. I read that book several times, as well as Children of Dune. And you know what? I still haven’t seen the movie, and I haven’t read the book in over twenty years. TWENTY YEARS. I don’t even really remember it anymore. And that is just sad.

Now, granted, I still have my son and my mother to take care of, so I can’t spend all my free time doing whatever I want. Luckily, they both mostly can look after themselves. I just need to be around. So that means…I can do my own thing.

Which brings me to my third thing.

Recently, a friend of mine and I went to see Captain America: Brave New World. It was all right. To be honest, I’ve always been kind of “meh” about Captain America. But at one point, I leaned over to my friend and said, “Wait…Captain America has wings?”

“Yeah,” he answered.

I leaned back. I didn’t know this at all. Or did I at one point? I have a really horrible memory. I couldn’t even remember which of the Marvel movies I had watched and which ones I hadn’t.

That’s when I decided that I would solve that problem. I will watch all of them.

So last night, I started on Captain America: The First Avenger. I don’t think I ever saw this one, and I was surprised that I liked it! And I was feeling pretty satisfied that this Captain America (Steve Rogers), in fact, did not have wings. Apparently, that is a Sam Wilson (once Falcon) thing.

Next up on the list is Iron Man, which I know I’ve seen. I remember that I really liked that one too. So it’s not exactly an arm-twist to rewatch it.

Now the question is…do I do movie summaries of them with my dumb comments? I’m thinking yes, not because I think it will be entertaining for anyone, but I’m kind of sick of forgetting everything I read or watch and wonder if actually writing about them would help them stick in my head a bit better.

Besides, if I’m going to get back in a writing habit, I have to start somewhere, don’t I?